New people, new world

Remember when you were in kindergarten meeting all new friends to play with at recess ? Look back at all the people you've met and became friends with. Some have changed and some have not. When I look back at all the people I talked to, sometimes I get really shocked by how much they've changed. Some actually have the exact same personality or creativity as me and I just wonder why we ever stopped being friends, but then I remember people come and go as they please only those who really cherish you and the way you are stay. You can't change the way a person feels about you. All you can do is remember all those fun and happy times you all had together. Sooner or later you'll see them again in the future. Maybe they've changed and maybe they didn't. Who knows ? And would it really matter ? Sometimes it's just good to think about if you've changed because maybe you're the reason your perspective of a person changed. Maybe it was you who changed and just haven't realized it. How do you think the other person feels when they see you and think "wow, things really changed." Never forget that you'll always meet new and amazing people along the way. 

Over thinking.

It hurts when your mind wants to explore into what I call "permanent detention" it's when you over think and can't get yourself out of that horrible agony. What could you possibly do when you're stuck thinking about every little thing you're scared of ? You start to feel like all of your words are stuck in a box like doves getting ready to be let go at a wedding or a magic show. You can't think straight anymore. It's like you're a puppet and your strings start to tangle, all you can think about is getting free. It's hard to let yourself go of all the tension that you think about. How do you stop yourself from stressing over something unthinkable ? It feels physically impossible sometimes. When you think it's like opening doors to knew places. Almost like you're stuck in a labyrinth of endless doors that lead to no where. All you can do is try to get your mind off of the endless pain you put yourself through. 

Speak what you feel or leave it be.

I've officially given up on what I believe to be the right thing, and that is "speaking your mind". What is speaking your mind anyways? Nobody ever listens to the opinions you have. I've tried so many times to give it a chance, to finally go up to someone and tell them how I feel, but how could someone do that without any courage or hope. "We all have our demons." I just wish mine would go away... I'm tired of being pulled back from saying what needs to be said;If I do speak my mind everyone would get mad for what I have to say so I never say anything at all. I'm like a bird locked in a cage with no way of getting out,that's all I want. A way out from this thing we call reality. Reality is something you just can't break free from and I'm just having a hard time noticing that. Not everything you wish for can happen. Even if I did get the chance to free myself from the tiny bird cage I sit in, what would I possibly do? Speaking my mind is no longer an option, no one would bother to sit down and listen without them getting in the middle of me talking. Why talk if they just don't want to hear you speak? (This is when reality hits you right in the face.)There's no way you can ever possibly say something without someone having something to say back, it's like a song that loops on forever. You can't stop it. Not even for a second. The more you try to get it to stop the more it just plays in your head; leaving you breathless with nothing else to say because it just defeats you without giving you a chance. *The loop effect: something unbreakable; lasts forever*. At least that's my definition of what it is. Life loops on and on even when you want it to stop and this is all because you're stuck in your memories, you never lose what's been playing in your mind for years. No one seems to realize it; everyone goes through pain one way or another. 

About me

I'm a teenage girl with a creative mind. I enjoy writing, photography and other exciting things that have to do with being creative. No one could possibly appreciate writing as much as I do. I usually just write about anything my mind thinks about. You have to really read and imagine the setting of my writing. Some of my writing are fiction and some are non fiction, most of my writing will be advice, but others will be freestyle. Please enjoy. :) 

New Blog

Hello Everyone, 

Most posts you see on the blog are not all going to be based on real things that are happening, most things I write about are just creative writing that I just write about. Some may relate to the creative writings more than other's. I hope you enjoy! More to come and more to read ! 

                                                Sincerely, 

                                                    Lena

Creative Writing (fiction)

I've lost it all, myself... Everything I have no idea what I should do at this point, I'm at my breaking point and I'm ready to give up. I lay on my bed constantly thinking. It doesn't help on the feelings I have running around In my mind. I sit still on my bed with little clowns running in my head slowing me down keeping me afraid of what's real and what's not.. I'm stuck thinking, dreaming,  realizing that NOTHING lasts forever. Gone forever with no hope I sit in my room contemplating whether or not I should try or give up. There's strings attached to me keeping me from breaking free from my worsts fears. I dream of happiness but live in darkness. What's really keeping me from stepping out from the dark and entering the light? My heart? My soul? My life? My family? I haven't realized it yet. Stop.. My head is spinning I'm stuck in my thoughts. It's chasing me. I'm done. Enough I'm shot down, murdered. It's just a dream.. Right? My whole world ended when I needed the help to keep it together. It's falling a part help me stop it from crumbling. Guess not. Maybe I'm over exaggerating. I probably am but who knows. I'm broken. The thoughts I think keep me from pushing forward I'm stuck in the mind set of a person who's alone in a room isolated from the outside. I'm decaying like an abandoned house with no one to cater to it's every need. I want to be fixed, but who can fix me better than myself? So many questions unanswered yet the thoughts still linger in my mind. Break free they say, let them all know who you truly are. Break free? How can I do that without the missing key? Where's the door? Where's anything anymore? Maybe it's better to be isolated in this room.. Maybe I'm wrong. Who knows. 

Keep your head up

Wouldn't it be fun to realize you have so much to live for? Living in the negative just brings the darkness that hides under our beds onto ourselves. It's hard to keep yourself sane while dealing with all the things life pushes towards you. Wouldn't it be awesome to be able to sing a song without anyone judging your voice? It would be amazing to live life without a worry in your mind. Being judged isn't the best, but you have to push yourself forward so you can believe being yourself is the best thing possible. How would the world be if you weren't yourself? It'll be like a cave without bats or a circus without clowns. What's the point of hurting yourself mentally and physically? Why do that at all when you can be happy with your family and friends? In that moment of being sad or depressed no one is going to change that but you. The real world is going to knock you down sometimes but all you can do is pick yourself back up. It's time to realize that life will never be fun or exciting unless you make it that way. Decide whether you want to be happy or sad because no matter what, the world revolves around you and no one else. Its your life, you live it the way you imagined it would be.